27 March - Alive and Present

Just back from another gym session with Zaid and saw LL - she gets more excited about my weight loss and changing body shape than I do, love you LL for that :). Tonight I wore a tshirt I havent worn before, I felt it was a bit small, LL says its OK, I trust her feedback. I flashed her toe loose flabby flesh on my bellies and she said it wasnt too bad, I said it would take a lot of courage to wear a bikini on Saturday - I still trust you LL< but let me see how I feel on Saturday morning!

Ive had a weird week really. Many thoughts, far too many to be honest, a million ideas floating around my head, some forgotten some already sorted. Sorted is my deposit payment for the Juice Therapy course in June. Life changing for me personally, my close friends and family will benefit, then I need to complete a few more courses and exams and I could then use the knowledge I have learned to help others.

Although Im already helping others, Ive been told many times how I have inspired people - friends and friends of friends, its nice to know that this blog has helped you all, one of the nice consequences of my regular online detoxing. Soon I will start charging ha ha! One of my friends started juicing on Sunday and this morning she had already lost 2.7kgs. Another friend started juicing today (AND she has the new Philips Avanche juicer like me, go girl!!). Im rooting for all my girls who are STILL doing the OFC Wonderwoman 2 times a week, Im glad we are all inspiring each other and youre doing amazing! MrsEC, Ive got my eye on you, and Im stalking you every step (as is LL during office hours!). Keep going, keep up the exercise, stay focused, just do your best and keep your sights on that end goal. MsA who is on week 2 has done AMAZING, and Ive loved the updates and mutual motivations - thank you for giving me credit for your inspiration, I did not realise I was that influential to someone as strong and determined as you).

My end goal is in sight (in fact in A4 size red numbers - 75 on my door and on my phone for some subconscious focus), its weird to think that Ive lost over 25kgs since January 2011 and I think I need to lift that weight in the gym at some point to feel what I used to carry. I have no understanding of what that is. Zaid, another task for you for the weekend? I DID have a very bizarre thought this week, that now my 75kgs is so close, it feels easy. This week feels easy, keeping up the exercise is easy (Thursday is my only day off this week and Im watching Hungry for Change at a friends together instead of going drinking ....... Ive got a weighin every Friday now for 6 weeks!!). At the same time, Im throwing away clothes to the charity bin on a daily basis, so much so, that Ive got the smallest wardrobe and working wardrobe EVER! Additionally, today I wore a very larg black short to work, I wore a belt over it. ME! A BELT? Jeeezuzzz. Even more amusing, I didnt wear one of my "safety" vest tops underneath, I decided I didnt need it today. The skirt I was wearing Ive only worn 3 times over 3 weeks, and as of next week, I know in my heart its heading to the charity bin. I love that Monsoon skirt. As Im typing this, I also know the other Monsoon skirt I got at the same time will also be too big, that was a more generous fit ... sigh!

Ive still got a bag of 10 selected dresses and 3 jackets to be taken in by the tailors, just trying to find the time to go to get fitted for them in between my busy schedule. It still amazes where I suddenly found all this spare time to do so much.

Last night I went to the OFC Yogi Fit, took a lovely young friend from work to get her motivated and on her way while she is still 23yrs old! That was my 3rd session and really enjoyed it despite still some significant issues with the right leg, especially where the injection hit ... Anyway, after the session, and a trip to Spinneys for the bulky shopping, and 5 trips back and forth from the car bringing it in, then unpacking and doing some washing, I was literally bouncing off the walls. I thought that at 10pm I would feel a bit tired, hell no, last night I was feeling more alive than I have ever been. There was only one thing for it (only cos I couldnt do a tandem SkyDive .... I did crave it last night, I will be honest - can you imagine, a night skydive ......... sigh sigh!) .... Nordic walk!

Off I went, Yanni playing gently on my ickle ipod shuffle (one ear for safety, it was dark!), poles in hand, and odd I stomped. And it was more of a stomp, I had a plan to gradually stomp this alien takeover of energy that was in my system, I did get some looks - yes you can feel them in the dark from inside the cars that drove past and some even slowed down. I kept my head down and my mouth shut, ooh something new there then! LL had suggested to think if nice calm things as I walked, so I tried and my thoughts moved to the usual over analysis that fills my brain 24/6.5 - not 24/7 (minus half a day for the recent Friday brunches that have filled my head void of much thoughts apart from mmmm thats a lovely cocktail yuck thats a nasty cherry, ooops I think I need to go home now .....). I actually came to a conclusion quite quickly, another first! I just felt alive, I felt good, I felt easily positive, I felt content for today... in fact,  was present! Here, now, alive, doing it, living it. Present. Meditation has been teaching me how to be present when meditating, something I have neglected the last week since class NO 3, as Ive hid my lovely meditation chair in the wardrobe so the kitties dont destroy it or cover it in fur - hidden therefore I dont see therefore I dont do.

So in advance of my final mediation class No 4 with the lovely Helen Williams from Lifeworks, Im off to meditate and practice ahead of tomorrow. It doesnt matter how long I do this as its bedtime and Im not sleeping these days til after 1am at the earliest. Any meditation is a bonus, sleep will come easy after this.

On a final note, I used my new connection to my present self and developing spirituality (I never said that before, how many firsts can I achieve this week .....), something that I am comfortable with and contributes to how I feel at the moment, to find my "lost" earphones last night. After looking around the apartment in the only places they cold be, I sat on my bed, said to my 3rd eye, come on then leets see if you can bloody work and find my earphones, 2 deep breaths and I stood up and walked to my middle wardrobe where I had looked twice in the preceding 5 minutes .. and my eyes were drawn directly without hesitation to the earphones. Thank you 3rd eye, thank you me for being present.

I will finish this waffle, fuss and nonsense for this evening, quickly before I start sounding like an old hippy fart like my dad - Hiya Pops :) - and bow to you all (especially my get fit and juicing it girls) that you are all present in yourselves, for today, not for the past, not dreaming and living in the future - Just here and now present.

Namaste *

* The gesture Namaste represents the belief that there is a Divine spark within each of us that is located in the heart chakra. The gesture is an acknowledgment of the soul in one by the soul in another. "Nama" means bow, "as" means I, and "te" means you. Therefore, Namaste literally means "bow me you" or "I bow to you."

24 March - The Perfect 10

10kgs to go til I reach my ultimate target.

Originally I was to be 80kgs by my 40th birthday and 7kgs5 by August for LLs birthday .. but at some point, I re-evaluated my goals and realised it was possible to reach 75kgs by my birthday.

6 weeks to go - Im at 85kgs exactly on Zaids scales, % fat is reducing and muscle is increasing, all good news.

For next Friday I need to be min 83kgs and continue with a 2kg loss for the remainder of the 6 weeks .... I will get there, but if anyone has any magical tips, advice, encouragement or motivation please let me know, these 6 weeks are going to be the hardest yet but also the most motivational.

Going back to when I was at the Juicemaster Retreat last October, introducing myself, I talked about never having goals in life before and probably not achieving very much. This is the most important goal and achievement of my life, I just cant focus on the fact that I wish I had done this years ago, I have to focus on what Kate told us - you spend the 1st and last 5 years of your life dribbling so youve got 80 years to enjoy your life - Ive worked out I have the latter half of my 80 years to rock this planet in style. And thats exactly what I plan to do.

Im now focussing and planning on the following :

1. Continuing my personal training with Zaid even after I reach my goal
2. Continuing 1 x week yogi fit and 1 x week wonder woman bootcamp (not that Ive sampled that one yet!)
3. Make and drink juices - my new habit, my new life, the new me - the new career?
4. Being happy and enjoying life
5. Remembering the past to help me stay focused, but leaving it in the pat
6. See my psychologist again, I need all the help I can get to stay on track
7. Meditate daily 
8. Learn to sleep min 8 hours per night (at least more than 5 -6 hours!)

I have a lot to look forward to - not limited to :

• Nieces 4th birthday - quick long weekend back home with family
• Holiday in Thailand for my birthday with my good friends
• Getting some tattoos :)
• Moving to a new apartment closer to the beach and my new outdoor life (paddle boarding, kayaking, nordic walking, running ...... oooh the list is endless)
• Training as a Juice Therapist with Juicemaster.com in June - I would be the 1st in the Middle East and I plan to use this for a new career

So, til next time when I will update more gossip and some actual goings on and possibly some amusing experiences, Im off to buy my s14 jeans from gap, I think its time they hung ready and waiting in my wardrobe for my holiday in April to the UK :).

Have a great week and stay with me over the next 6 weeks, I need your support and encouragement and just knowing Im not struggling alone will help me so much xxxx

PS Gym Buddies

I had to share this with you ... Ive been receiving more and more emails and requests for help from friends, friends of friends and anonymous strangers, all very exciting. Occasionally I receive some true gems, and sometimes very amusing .....


I have a good friend, who lives overseas (from Dubai that is ...) who emailed me over the weekend - he had been reading my blog and identified with some of my embarrassing moves in the gym. He is very funny, motivated and has gone through a massive change to his lifestyle and health and fitness and is looking seriously buff these days! I hope you dont mind that I anonymously share some of your words, as you lightened up my day when I read this and I know many more people will identify with your gym experiences :


"Had to chuckle at your blog as I'm sure I look a right twat doing some of the things my trainer makes me do. I was doing 'the bazooka' yesterday with a large rubber drainpipe thing lunging and hoisting this thing onto my shoulder, firing skuds into the neighbouring office building... Then, oh so versatile, shimmy side step, side step (ok I shimmy in my head) and swoosh it's now a jolly hockey stick!! I wouldn't mind so much if this area is tucked away in the corner of the gym but oh no, right there in the middle on the walk to the changing rooms.. With the slap, slap, bam! Of the boxing I might as well set up a popcorn stand nearby for free entertainment... I just keep thinking that he knows what he's doing."


Thanks Mr-You-Know-Who-You-Are, youre such an inspiration and eternal thanks for all your encouragement, advice and funny emails sharing your experiences. Looking back to 9 years ago when we first me, me fresh of the boat from the Maldives and you a true Dubai expat, look how things have changed -who would ever imagine we had health and fitness in common?! Loving it xx

19 March - Time after Time

Before I commenced this health and fitness regime, I ever had any time for much, time was precious and rare and always by passed me or slipped through my fingers.

Looking back to my first few bootcamp sessions with OFC last January 2011, THE hardest part was making the time. I was lucky, I had LL committed to attending the 3 sessions a week with me, to jump start my new habit. Everything in my life had to go on hold until I lost this weight and achieve my goals, and change my habits for life. I sacrificed and gave things up (erm ... take aways and lazy nights on the sofa doing nothing top the list) but I still struggled and didnt really like what I was doing.

Fast forward to March 2012 - Im happy to report things have changed dramatically, some habits will take longer to change, however, the exercise is now a habit and a routine. When I miss a session with Zaid, I feel a little disorientated and my thoughts drift off to what I feel I SHOULD have been doing instead (except last Saturday when I was suffering major Irish Ball hangover, I forgot all about Zaid and gym and fitness ...) and now I like the fact that the rest of my life fits around my exercise plan. Ive upped the exercise schedule for the rest of March and April and my schedule currently looks like this (April changes are in brackets!) :

Sun eve - 1hr PT with Zaid, usually cardio!
Mon eve - 1hr Yogi Fit with Gillian from OFC at Mirdif Park
Tues eve - 1hr PT with Zaid
Weds eve - Meditation Class (OFC Wonder Woman at Safa Park with the girls)
Thurs eve - OFC Wonder Woman at Mirdif Park
Fri morning - 1hr PT with Zaid usually boxing
Sat morning - 1hr PTw with Zaid

I felt I had to write that down for myself. I usually do 4hrs with Zaid but adding up the above thats going to be 7hrs of exercise each week, 1hr every day, and thats not even including the nordic walking, walking round the malls, carrying bags from the car ... ha ha!

The difference now is I have the time, suddenly Ive got several hours a week free to fit in all this exercise, and I do kind of enjoy it - hey, its not easy, or pain free and it can be uncomfortable and frustrating and very tiring at times, but Im now doing it! Im doing more than just rocking up now. Where did all this time come from? Where has it been hiding? What did I do before ....? You know, I really cant remember, its all very hazy - perhaps its hazy due to all the nasty processed foods and sugars, carb overdoses .... and Ive just also realised I havent had many food blackouts recently, in fact I have stopped thinking about them. They are still there, but just very rare.

The only sugars Im getting this week is from natures own, and the only processing going is in in my new juicer. Love my new tool of the trade and Im very much looking forward to becoming a professional and qualified Juice Therapist. Roll on June 2012 - Universe, please keep 1 space available for me until tomorrow :) until my deposit is paid.

Im on a mission, a juicing mission, a 5kg loss s week thimission (ambitious - perhaps, achievable - absolutely), a fitness mission, Ive got a red and white polka dot bikini to wear in 7 weeks - and yes the s14 is washed and ready for the Bangkok trip. Just not sure about the loose skin (as seen on the SkyDive No 4 video and pics), thats a whole new fitness regime!

The habit Im still to work on is to ensure some of my spare awake time is shared with my sleeping time .... all this spare time, leading to more exercise is resulting in less need to sleep and feeling less tired. Im not complaining, really, I just know that my body needs more sleep and rest to repair my poor muscles on a daily basis. Ah, thats why Im doing meditation - class No 3 on Wednesday.

Its all coming together, hello 40th birthday....suddenly youre looking quite pretty, and time and age is on my side now!

If you're lost you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time

Gene Genie

Scientists-discover-greedy-gene-makes-eat-full



Seriously!?!


However, Im loving this comment at the bottom :


"Okay, let's say it IS a mutant gene. Something then has mutated it and what is it? Could it be fat and sugar, soda and a sedentary lifestyle? That is the only way I will give credit to a gene for contributing to all this obesity because without the fuel, it wouldn't mutate. Scientists need to prove that obese people had that faulty gene before they got obese but no, they wouldn't be able to do that. Our ancestors didn't pass down these genes, it's not hereditary, they weren't fat, it's today's lifestyles and unhealthy diets. Scientists want to prove it's a gene so that they can justify a drug, when all people have to do is stop eating what we know to be addictive rubbish."


How I wish I had read these articles many years ago. I was today talking to a 23 year old wok colleague, and Ive been talking about health and juicing and nutrition with her for a while, as she wants to lose weight. My words to her were more or less - if you can learn what Ive learnt in the last 15mths at your age, you are 17 years ahead of me, and just think of the fabulous longer life you will have ahead of you!


However, its not too late and life CAN and DOES begin at 40 ... or 23, or just whenever you ready, you choose to and you go for it!

14 March - Ive got one word for you!

Muffin Tops!

So I didnt buy my new juicer after my 2nd meditation class this evening (going great and Ive returned home with my new meditation chair - damn its still in the car and Im now in my Pjs!), instead I went shopping for some new jeans. I decided to wear my new skinnier s18s from M&S, however opted for no belt as I knew I would be sitting and bending over - a belt would only complicate matters. But after feeling like I had reverted t looking like a s24, I had to do something fast. Tomorrow was jeans dat at work and the day after I want ed to look and feel good for my sky dive ... call me vain, Im not listening!

I was heading for Debenhams, one of my safe shopping locations, when I walked towards Gap. Someone somewhere told me they or someone they knew went to Gap and had jeans fit them like a glove (or a pair of jeans?) - was it MsAJ? Then there I was, staring at a walk of folded jeans trying to make sense of them all. A young girl who worked there walked up and I felt like I had never been shopping before in my life. Part of that was true, Id never shopped for jean to look good on me before, I had only shopped for jeans that fitted me, style and looking good was an optional extra, a preference but not essential. I suddenyl felt nervous and self conscious. I was optimistically looking for a s16 regular and all I could find was s16 long - they arent going to work with the flats, but I decided to try them on anyway for size. The were the skinny ones, as I refused to try on the wide legged, flared, bootleg or anything that resembled any old pair of jeans Ive ever owned. I felt brave, still optimistic.

Great, the dressing rooms were empty - well it was 930pm on a Wednesday evening! Shops closed in 30mins. Off I kicked the now very baggy skinny s18s ..... I slipped on the skinny Gap s16s, and even though the felt a little tight, they fitted. Quietly elated I walked outside to look at the long mirror far away. The Gap girl, told me they were too big. Ha ha shes got to be kidding me. She tried to get me to try on a s14, oh how I laughed. In fact I replied, "so we can have a laugh" and she was worried she had upset me. She handed me a pair of s16s regular in the straight fit style I had originally looked for - yay. Back into the fitting room I skipped - ok the skipping was just in my head but it was a few mins of fun Ive never had. I was chuffed to bits they fitted me regardless. On the jeans I wanted. O M G. Fits like a glove. Now where have I heard that before? Now I was happy, I showed the Gap Girl, she eventually persuaded me to try on the s14s - back she came as I was stroking my nice jeans legs and admiring my ass in the long mirror!!

THE s14s FITTED! Now, I didnt buy the 14s, though I was tempted. To wear the s14s wouldve meant a real compromise on my choice of tops (now they are now not so baggy there is nowhere to hide ...), and I could only wear the loose tops with the 14s if I cold ensure there was no wind moving the top (basically a breeze to gale force and everything in between). And then there was Kims Muffin Top! Its only because some of that spare belly flab require (a) tonig up BIG time or (b) some BKK surgery time .. but they did actually fit. And I mean they zipped up, I could breathe .. normally. It was just the loose flabby skin that stopped me!

LL and AJ would be proud - WILL be proud. After your guidance on what jeans to buy I did it, Ive achieved what you advised me to. Thank you Gap and the lovely Cheryl who works there who thinks Ive completely lost the plot - she told me the next size I would buy would be a s12 if I lost another 10kgs, oh how I laughed. But hey, anythings possible!

It is possible. Ive come from a s24 in January 2011 to an official normal Gap s16 in 14 months. Now I get it. Now I can see it. Now Im proud. Despite the pad thai for dinner ....... ooops, juices again tomorrow .. I guess Ive got some extra work to do next week to catch up the last 2 weeks. Thats going to hurt. A bit like the bum cheek glutes hurting that Ive got going on thanks to Zaids fabulous idea for me to lift those 10kg weights whilst doing squats yesterday. Ooouuuucccchhhhcaaaaa!

Ok, I need those squats to get rid of those muffin tops. Gap s14 here I come.

13 March - All you need is ...

.. a great personal trainer!!

According to Melanie Sykes, all you need to do is date one! : I love Melanie Sykes!

Its ok Zaid Gerber, I will leave the marriage proposals to the mad scottish one ..... Ive been waiting a long time to add this article, LL and I have already had a giggle about this back in October last year!

So people of Dubai, if you want a good personal trainer in this mad desert, you have to find one you feel safe and comfortable with that understands you and gets you - all it took was a few simple words from Zaid back in January last year - JUST KEEP ROCKING UP! But you cant have all of Zaid, he is very busy and youre not having my 4 slots I have with him each week. I might give up 1 or 2 when I reach my 75kgs goal, but until then, I think youre going to have to add your name to the waiting list......

Zaid has now set up his own business, one of his activities he has added to his multi-skilled belt is Personal Training - when he finds time in between winning medals at Jiu Jitsu Competitions - Congratulations Mr Champion! If anyone wants his email, let me know ..... but dont get him too busy, Ive still got about 10kgs to go ....

So yes Im still rocking up - sometimes I think he gets bored or frustrated with me (like when I have a week blow out on carbs like last week), or when we do pure cardio sessions (I would not be that disciplined to doing a full hour of cardio on the cross trainer, rowing machine and bike) .. but I burn his ear off 4 times a week anyway, and its a bit like a therapy session and a bit of a giggle at times plus I sweat tons, so its also a detox.

And I never thought Id love boxing, so much that Im looking for one of those sparring boxing balls ....

I struggle with new things - I think its the stubborn Taurus bull in me - like tonight, lifting 10kgs over the backs of my shoulders while I do squats - I think I just feel I look a right prat, but I did feel my "glutes" more and after the leg work tomorrow is going to be an interesting day. At least when I wake up its only 24hrs til Im back in the gym again, this time with my kitty-loving weekend gym mate!

So Zaid, this is dedicated to you - my success is your success, you have kept me going through those (many) tough days and weeks, when Ive lost motivation on those weigh-ins, when Ive force fed you my Juicemaster soups and juice, when Ive felt like jumping off that cross trainer at 20mins but youve got me to stay on for 30 or til I burn 300 calories .. youve taught me lots about TRX, circuits, pushing myself, weights, boxing (Yay) and how to get fit. Most of all youve managed to teach me lots about myself and that I can actually do this. I am DOING it right now. Youre a great PT, youre a superstar, and thanks but I promise there will be no marriage proposals  ... I will leave that to the madwoman you are seeing tomorrow at 6am - beware she is on day 4 of her 7lbs in 7 days, yesterday was detox low day, Wednesday morning shes going to be be bouncing off those walls more than usual .... Good luck ha ha!

In summary, all you need is Zaid Gerber! :)

12 March - What its REALLY like...

Juicemaster Retreat - Turkey 2011

If you wanted an insight into the Juicemaster Retreat, here is a very personal view of what happens. A beautiful group of people, a shared vision and goal, shared interests and just bloody good fun while losing weight, getting fitter and healthier. Wish I was there now, but I will have to wait til September or October.

Happy viewing and thank you beautiful lady who made this and emailed to everyone xx

9 March 2012 - Its cold out there

Fruit and veg make you cuter

Im loving this article, another bit of scientific proof that fruit and veg was good for us - as if we didnt know already!

And nice timing to get back on the juice and health and fitness journey again, after my week of forgetting about it all. I really needed to do that, to relax about the food I was eating. Sometimes I was good (breakfast was easier), sometimes I had my soups for lunch or dinner, I even had a salad, but the rest of the time ... IM not even going to go there, but there were carbs ....

Perhaps that will make next weeks weight loss goal easier to achieve - I have a reward at the end of the week - sky diving (no 4 whoop whoop) and then Taste of Dubai and then the St Patricks Day Ball. Ive got my seize 14 purple dress ready for the occasion, the shoes and handbag are sorted. I just need to choose an outfit for my sky dive, and Im thinking shorts ... yes really, I am!! Not sure Id like my legs flapping filmed for all to see, so may have to go find some decent shorts and not my boardies ha ha.

Las night I went to see my childhood crushes, Duran Duran - I stuck to water but I was soooo cold! My friends turned into 80s rock and pop chicks and wondered why I wasnt dancing like a looney like them - I prefer to watch the band, dancing for me is reserved for the DJ at the end of a ball, at the end of a drunken night around a friends apartment, around my apartment when cleaning and in a good place .... I wanted to watch my heroes. They were great. And I wore a size 8 leather jacket - ok, it was draped over my shoulders and all I could think if was that MrsM-KittyLady is technically half of me, or Im 2 of her!!!

Tonight its time for some Snow Patrol, and time to try and stay warm again - tonight is going to be cooler as we will be exposed to the sea air and temps on the Atlantis Nasimi Beach. I cant help thinking that since Ive got less blubber Im definitely feeling the cold more and I mean REALLY cold!! I will be layering ...

I missed out on practicing my meditation yesterday, but I made sure I had a try today - I had a lie in, gym training was cancelled, I WAS going to go, I truly was, then I fell asleep and woke up later 100% focused on cleaning and tidying and decluttering. So my meditation gave me some focus and energy to tick off the tasks on my list and DO SOMETHING productive today, instead of wasting the day. And as I am moving all day, and stepping over things and literally moving my body head to toes for 5hrs, this is the same as an hour in the gym .... well thats what Im telling myself :).

And once Im finished, I will practice meditating once more, give me energy to keep warm this evening ha ha!

Tomorrow, its back to juicing and Jason Vale .... to buy a new juicer or not, to buy a new juicer or not .... to buy a new juicer ............ !!

7 March 2012 - Back in the High Life Again

Im back! Hope you missed me ha ha!

I did not realise I hadnt been on here for THAT long .... I guess after the IT issues, the email hacking and focusing on me, I let the blog slip. Its always been in the back of mind somewhere, sometimes the front, on weekend on the side, depending on how massive the brunch!

I thought it only apt as I start a new chapter, to catch up with some goings on and a progress update and for me, a rather large reality check. So back to the public confessionals.

So, the next and new chapter. Im in a good place. I feel great, not all the time every day, I have my moments, but its all good, 80% of the time anyway. I had a moment of revelation and realisation last week, you know the kind of signal where there is a strong signal to go for something and you know instantly its right and right now. I was getting lost in some old and unhealthy habits, feeling myself spiral downwards, every day seemed to get worse and things just kept happening and I couldnt shake off that feeling of "FFS this is shit"! I tried positive thinking, that annoyed me. I tried deep breathing, I felt claustrophobic, I tried counting to ten, I got to 5 and exploded. Not once, not twice, in fact I lost count. Without going into the details, last week was a shite week.

Then, I received an email from Lifeworks, where I used to see my psychologist, that I ceremoniously dumped sometime last September because I was fed up of crying with her every-time I spoke in her company! It wasnt the right time to see her, I learnt enough form her to make enough positive steps and changes at that time, I always knew I would go back to her when the moment was right again. THIS email was to learn meditation, 2hrs every Wednesday for 4 weeks, 7p to 9pm. In an instant I was in. AED800, I was worried, money is very tight at the moment and will continue to be very tight for the next few months until I get the job of my dreams (yes there is a vision board, it WILL be mine, will update you that by end of  May I promise).

After my initial 100% commitment, I wavered on a daily basis, not quite sending the email to cancel my attendance. I woke up this morning and made the best decision so far this year. Just friggin do it! Once that was decided, I was in for 200% commitment and Ive just returned from that first amazing class. Its my date night with myself, and I was bloody good company though there wasnt a lot of chatting - external anyway. Thankfully the internal chatting was quite calm and quieter than normal too. Afterwards I bought myself some colourful flowers from Flowers at the Towers, my fave flower shop. I even got myself some chili chicken and broccoli in oyster sauce from one of my fave restaurants, Noodle House - the original one. NO white rice, no carbs, thats my reward tonight. I liked my first date with myself and shes kind of cool and fun and calmer than I thought. Far more balanced on that girl she was nearly 15 months ago now. What a journey ...... Im very proud of her :).

Enough talking in the 3rd party, it actually sounds quite creepy and a bit nutty ha ha!

And back to that journey - even since October and November so much has happened, I going to bullet point a few personal highlights, my top 10. Over the coming, days and weeks as I achieve my ultimate target weight of 75kgs, I will add in some more fond memories, realisations and highlights - and some low lights as they do exist, like we all have bad times, thats what makes us appreciated the highs and the good days even more :

1. After my week in Gocek with Kate, Amy, Max, Sally and the team and after meeting my hero Jason Vale at the www.juicemaster.com retreat,  I lost 4.8kgs. AND that was after eating 3 squares of baclava and a strong turkish cappuccino with my juicey soul sister from the weeks retreat - you know who you are gorgeous mad Liverpudlian Italiano beauty! That was me safely under 100kgs and I moved away from being stuck at that number. Duble figures her we come
2. I have continued to lose more weight, tone up and change shape, and get smaller and yet smaller clothes; Im pleased to report as of last Saturday I was 85.7kgs. Ive given myself the week off as after last week I was beginning to lose the plot a bit, I was about to give up and resign to this new (lowest ever that I can recall) weight and be happy with it. I was bored of thinking about being good and disciplined and in control so much, I was thinking constantly about being bad, being undisciplined and out of control...that scared me and it has probably taken me til this evening to realise that I can choose anything at any time, and I choose to be happy on my journey and pick it right back up. PS Im NEVER EVER getting back to 90kgs again ...another number I got stuck at for some time
3. I am now wearing a size 16, not bad for girl who was choosing size 24 clothes JUST because they fitted, instead of choosing to wear something because I liked it. I actually wore a size 14 Jane Normal dress to my 2 beautiful friends wedding in Glasgow in January, and I cant wait to wear that dress again at the Irish St Patricks Day Ball on 16th March. Im thinking my future blue-eyed irish yacht-owing husband might quite like in purple ;). My Uncle D WILL be pleased .....
4. Im LOVING the gym, in particular LOVING boxing with my personal trainer at the gym. I may have slacked off this as I havent done my usual Sunday and Tuesday evening but as off this weekend Im back on track and 500% committed to attending my regular 4 times a week. A lot of the credit of my success goes to my fabulous PT, I burn his ear off most sessions, Im never happy with the weight loss but he is more than happy with my progress, he inspires me to 'keep rocking up" and I am. Once Ive rocked up, he makes sure I do what Im supposed, even on days when I dont think Ive done enough he says Ive done well. I sweat like a trouper now, Im wearing more fitted sports outfits, I just need to get rid of the old baggy-far-too-big jogging bottoms. Im going to shop in the normal section of sports shops this weekend, now I feel I actually fit in a little more by shopping there in the first place, it feels good to walk in with my head held high and not shuffling with my ankles. PS My ankles are no longer swollen; genetically Im sure they are still a tad cankle-like however, there is bone, there is shape and I like them. Another first
5. Im considering a return to the OFC bootcamps - now thats something I didnt think I would say until a few more months. I was signed off by my physio a few weeks ago, he made more progress with me over 5 sessions than I did with my previous physio over 25 sessions. The man is one of my angels though I think if I told him that he would blush. Alright Mr T!! Ha ha. I will still keep to my promise, I will come and tell you after Ive run my first 5km .... LL we need to get on that jogging training soon. Back to OFC - so there is now a Wednesday evening session that a few if not most of my girlies are attending (they are doing Mon and Weds). I was going to attend, then the combination of the Meditation classes and the fact Im not risking damaging my ankle and not reaching my goal, I opted to start the Yogi-Fitness session in Mirdif from next Monday and every Monday. Its on my doorstep, its in the evening, its outside, its with my weekend gym buddy. Lets get stretching MrsM-Kitty-Lady :). From April, I can see me attending the Wednesday sessions in Safa Parkl - Corey, I will be in touch, I promise. Hope to see you next Monday in Mirdif
6. I have boundless energy - on good days of course. I feel sluggish when I eat carbs - the od sandwich DOES still pass my lips and then theres the healthier NKD Pizzas ..... sigh! LL was amused recently when I was planning and scheduling lots of skydives, balls, Tastes of Dubai, Ladies Nights etc, all for the same day. Yes are absolutely correct, there was no way a year ago I would have got overly excited about cramming in (1) 8am gym, (2) 12noon skydive, (3) 3pm - 5pm Taste of Dubai then (4) Irish Ball in the same day. You should be very proud lady, youve changed my life for the better and you know I will never thank you enough for you positive influence and motivation. And I will never say again that you ever nagged me ..... ha ha
7. I cant stop moving! Even if Im sat down my leg is moving or Im rocking (not like a looney thank you very much ....). When I go out, especially to balls I feel like Im dancing all night. Then I realise I have danced all night. I love the music, I love singing along, I love being the usual tit that I am and being silly with the girls. Jesus, Ive even got the confidence to dance with some men and feel confident that Im just as good as the other girls in the room and I dont have to be a funny twat to get a mans attention - though it sometimes helps ..... as one of the girlies said about last weekends balls - "its good to have fun with the girls and remind men that are just playthings ....". What a fabulous night that was ....
8. I like what I see in the mirror. Take today, Ive run out of work clothes - especially for the bottom half. Everything is bigger and I cant be bothered shopping any more or as often, items of clothing are lasting less than 2 months now, its amusing though and I do smile about it often. However the bank balance is not exactly healthy at the moment to afford a new wardrobe every 2 months. So today, I wore an outfit that I instantly knew I looked good and I felt confident. I had many comments about how noticeable my weight loss is getting and how I looked great. And my answer to these comments? Thanks, I know, I feel great. New words for new moments for the new me. I like it I like it (that ones for Max!)
9. Weird things are occurring with my body as it changes - nothing too weird so it IS safe to read on. The worst thing is Ive gone a bra cup size - may need a Thailand trip for some assistance later in the year. A couple of months ago I kept think I had something stuck to the back and top of my legs, and it took me a few days to realise that my bum, thigh and leg had separated - nothing Alien-like, just the fact a line had appeared that demonstrated where my bum cheeks ended and where my legs started. You may all have one or some of those lines, these were new additions to my skin. Even now months later when I feel that line I do giggle to myself, I even check out my ass in the mirror in my new size 16 brazilian knickers in polka dot pink and white. Thankfully I can now twist and see it without the rolls of fat on my sides .... which nicely leads to my next bullet ...
10. ... point! NORDIC WALKING. Ive bored you enough already about this but eventually I was able to confess I had them as I got LL a pair for her Christmas. We both have the top of the range Leki travelers poles that fold so we can take them with us on our many and varied holidays. Mine have so far reached Glasgow (nearly left them there too OMG!) and Sydney, though our 100hrs at NY there didnt permit any nordic walking (PS But I did achieve my goal of wearing a six 16 dress for the occasion). This walking has contributed to a lot of the fat loss and tones shape of my sides (along with my PT gym sessions), and I do love going out for a long walk with them around Mirdif. Im planning a nordic walk around Safa Park soon, to time myself per lap and to start getting some sunshine on my skin - I kind of look Glaswegian-grey at the moment especially my legs!! Its not a good look for my purple outfit for next week..

Most importantly is I seem to be inspiring other people - whether its coincidence or not - my dad and stepma have changed their lives and have lost weight and got healthier and fitter on the iphone WW application. Its great to know they have made such positive changes in their lives and that they keep inspiring me back always. For my mums Christmas pressie Im taking her for a weeks retreat holiday in Turkey and Im just waiting to get the dates confirmed for September or even October - the gift of life to mum and I know for sure her diabetes type 2 and IBS WILL improve after one weeks juicing and walking and relaxing in teh beautiful mountains of Gocek. Next year we will be in Portugal at Jason Vales new resort, and Im sure we will make this an annual holiday for some mother-daughter bonding. I guess Ive kind of grown up over the last 15 months.

Lastly, I want to give a big shout out to my girlies who have started the OFC Boot Camp in Safa Park this week, you know you are all beautiful, you are all amazing ladies, you are strong and determined, you can do this, dont let the DOMs get you down. In the words of our gorgeous MsAJ ......

"Never doubt you can do it - you are in charge"

Stay Tuned, I promise

Sorry for not updating for some time. I have drafted the last day in Gocek at the retreat, and my fabulous 1 night and 1 day in Istanbul, plus Ive got an update for the month after the retreat pending. So much to say, so many words, so little space, so little time. Awaiting IT assistance .....

Life remains busy and busier, but Im not complaining. Positivity continues to flow through my veins, and Ive committed to 4 sessions at the gym since my return. Its all good and I cant wait to share it all and some funny and useful websites Ive been collating.

Hope you are all doing fabulous, and continuing along your journey with me.

I promise to update you in a few days with all the details and great GREAT news.

Stay tuned : ) X

20 October - 5XL becomes M

What a gorgeous afternoon, Im now wishing I had chilled every day for a few hours like this. I had to keep moving my sunbed into the sun, my Dubai blood was cold in the shade. I had some quality moments chilling with my lovely roomie. In fact the whole group are lovely, everyone chilled in their own space, there were no apparent little groups, everyone just seems to be getting in perfectly. What an amazing bunch of people, what a pleasure to be here.

I was getting in tune with natue, enjoying the beautiful mountains, breathing the clean fresh air, admiring the clouds - we dont get many like that in Dubai. I was on my laptop typing away, I did ask the peeps beside me if it was ok - this was a relaxing retreat time after all.

The weather was great, amazing that a few days ago we all felt miserable on our 3rd day and the weather was equally as miserable. Im feeling a sense of peace and calm, Ive missed that feeling for a long time, or did I ever have this inner calm ever? This is a feeling I would like to hold on to for a lot longer than this week ...

Then it was time to settle our bills and place some orders. Its a little complicated getting delivery to Dubai - about GBP70 complicated. So Ive placed my order and had it delivered c/o my dad. Hoping it will be cheaper by courier than by Royal Mail post - at least I can now order my Leki Nordic Poles and have them delivered the same way. Such a shame as Dubai isnt exactly middle of nowhere!!

As I was ordering I selected a tshirt - why not wear my running on juice with my nordic poles once I get home, sounds like fun and people will definitely know who I am if Im seen walking around Safa Park ... ha ha! Encouraged by roomie MsA and Kate, I tried on the tshirts. I looked at the ladies Xl, teeeeeny weeny, whats that all about!? So I looked at the mens Xl. It looked huge. Large also looked huge. I wanted a tshirt that I wold get some wear out of, just not for a few weeks. Im obviously feeling positive about my weight loss continuing after this week to have thoughts like that. I had to have more encouragement, but I tried on the mens medium. OMG it fitted and it wasnt horrendous, even wore over my flowery black sun dress and no bra! MsA ran to get my camera, I followed her outside, model poses in the tshirt followed. I was very amused and very happy. I like M. I prefer it over other letters. Could I ever be in a S? Its a far cry from my first ever OFC Bootcamp tshirt - 5XL. I will keep that one item for when I reach my goal by May next year. LL, thats going to be a moment to remember. January now seems a long long time ago.

Wow, I feel fabulous. I think its time to choose my Leki nordic walking poles. Sallys OK nod sorted, MsA wants to order the same poles. Sally youve started a craze here in Dubai and in Lake Como - I can just see MsA nordic walking in her posh way in Milan :). Yep, ordering is easy, delivery to Dubai is a nightmare. However, Im very excited about the fitness "paws" I have found, accessory shopping has never been as exciting as this. Thanks always Sally xx.

Juice demolished. Retail therapy sorted (well almost, at least window shopping), time for our LAST BOOTCAMP with Max soon. I feel a tinge of sadness takes over me. Sort it out lady! Get a grip and just enjoy the session. Is this a little pang of endorphin induced emotions, good god! Yippee and whoop whoop. Sadly, I passed on the last nordic walk, but I wanted to save myself for the bootcamp. I can do the walking when Im home, I cant take Max home ha ha!

Ive just absolutely loved Max's bootcamp circuit sessions this week, all of them. Even the early morning 7am sessions. I wish I could stay here for a lot longer, this week has passed too quickly. With those thoughts in mind, we were soon warming up. And what a warm up. Do you remember at school, when you stood in a line, and passed a ball either above your head, or between your legs and then the person at the back run to the front and started the process all over again? Anyone know what thats called? Ha ha. We had such fun with this warm up, we were all cheering each other on, competing against the other team, squealing like kids, it was great fun, fabulous fun! I could have done that for hours and hours. Where was all this energy coming from!? I didnt care, I was happy happy.

We discovered where Sergei cooked his food - over the wall from where we were doing our evening bootcamps. All week we thought it was our soups being cooked. How wrong we were. Today everyone was distracted by the smells. I thought it smelled nice but I wasnt bothered by it. It must have been odd for Max, she kept explaining what we were to do, but hardly anyone was listening. Some people were going mental over the smells. MrsM peeked over the wall ... oops! I just wanted to do the bootcamp...

I gave the session my best. I gave it my all. The music was great. I had decided at the beginning of the week that I would run on this last session, regardless of how my ankle was feeling. I didn't care if I was sent home in a wheelchair, I was just elated that I had done so much this week, more than I ever had done before, the couch potato was outside in beautiful weather moving her ass. A lot of ass moving and it wasnt all wobble! We were in pairs and I was with MsG, a gorgeous lady, we were well matched. As we swapped between exercises, there was  lot of high fiving going on, it felt like great team work. I started off walking on the gravel, fast walking. I was swinging my arms proper nordic stylee. Then I went for it, it wasnt a fast run but it was a run. I was careful on the turns. I havent run for a loooong time.I felt a major difference and improvement in my fitness. With each evercise, I noticed and improvement, moreso press ups and sit ups. Im liking the fact that I was enjoying, absolutely over the moon, about exercise. Being outside in this environment makes all the difference. Im still happy happy.

On the last exercise, the music changed. Tai Cruz and Kylie Minogue. My song. My skydiving song that has become just my energy boosting, motivational song. It was perfect timing. I was singing as I completed my last few steps. My ankle held out, I had a little plain but I cold live with it. I had done it. One week at bootcamp. I felt sad, an emotional sad inside to my (fitter) core. But its OK, I can come back again next year. Maybe 2 weeks next time. Thats it, 2 weeks would be even better than this. Then  remembered, I still had one more morning session tomorrow. Oh well, thats alright then!

I skipped back to my roomie MsA. I didn't know what to do with myself. There was only one option, soup! Soup and a movie "Food Inc". What an amazing day, what a fabulous week.

I didnt want to sleep, cos that would mean tomorrow would arrive. But its OK, Ive achieved so many things this week. In fact, Im now thinking about my weigh in on Sunday. What will those scales read? I know its only going to be good news.

Friday is calling me, everyone has gone to sleep - with or without sleeping pills. I missed the drug scene through the whole of my life, I may as well continue to miss it. But how come I was the last know my roomie was he sleeping pill supplier? Ha ha

20 October - 6th Sense

I woke several times during the night; this cold seems to have kicked up a notch. Could be a hay fever tough as it’s been a long time since I’ve been this close to green nature. But it does feel like a cold. I thought I had slept all night snoring with my mouth wide open, but MsA says she didn’t hear me. I think she’s a deep sleeper!

I woke at 6.28am, 2 mins before my alarm and I switched it off, knowing I was awake this time! I lit the floor from my bed to the bathroom with my phone, don’t know why I did that as I hadn’t done this all week. I was on the look out for scorpions. I did the usual, and went to wash my hands, and my heart started to pound when I actually saw a scorpion. I didn’t know what to do. I had my BB with me, could I Google "best way to kill a scorpion" or do I just go for it? I went back to the rom to get my aluminum flask, thanking god that he was still there when I returned. He moved in between MsA's toiletries and it took me a while to have the courage to move them one by one. He was still there then decided to walk down the wall. The only "tool" I had was my small bottle of hairspray, flat bottom. I had to crush the little thing in half, I would never have rested had he escaped. It was my sanity or his life. Im afraid my sanity won. Sorry matey, please forgive me. I must have sensed he was there, something in these juices and soups hee hee!

Phew,  already had my morning warm up. Took a few mins for my breath and heart to go back to normal. A few dancing feet in the bathroom did the trick. Time to get dressed.

Another morning session complete with RAF Max - that woman has boundless energy. For me, Im a very happy chicky as this was another session that didn’t strain my ankle. I felt proud I had made another morning session. It reminded me of the old me pre last Friday, confident I wasn’t a morning person and look at me now. Loving exercise at 7am in the cold. It’s going to be so easy to walk 30mins every morning in the morning sun and heat when Im back in the sandpit. No excuses. Buts = big butts and I would love a butt like Max! We all wish for the same, Im sure even MrG!

Superfood shot - check!

Missed Sally’s Nordic Walking, but its only temporary. Will be ordering my own set online soon, so I don’t feel Im missing out TOO much. I dangled my right in ankle in the freezing cold pool .... I need to warm up - Time to try the sauna for the first time - had a gossip and a little heart to heart with one of my lovely Irish fellow juicers, MsC. After we put the world to rest, I dangled the ankle in the pool again. Then I packed most of my clothes. All packed and organised for easy washing when home. OCD developing me thinks, but hey, it’s a good one.

Then more Max at 1115am. A great session and Im really really enjoying the exercises. I also enjoy working in pairs, a different person each time. This time MsCl - we chatted a bit as we went round, we shared tips and hints. A good one to share is peel, deseeded portion avocados and bananas then freeze, ready for use in the mixers for the juices. Marvelous :). The session was over far too fast. There aren’t many sessions left - one final bootcamp this afternoon, looking forward to it and don’t want it to end. Im insanely jealous of 2 juicy colleagues who are staying next week aswell. MsZ and MsS, we all need full run down of what we will miss and how you are both doing, cant wait to hear all about it. Good luck girls for the week ahead, you’ve done amazing this week already, just think what you will achieved by completing 2 weeks.

For me, time for more chilling. Time for sunbed. First time this week. Bring it on : )

19 October - The Love Boat

We left the retreat about 1030am, drove down that gravelly drive. I decided there and then that I would not attempt any more walks down there, what with that ankle of mine, I was only tempting fate. Instead, I was dedicating myself to the remainder of the bootcamp circuit sessions, every single one of them until I left the hotel. And get some time out to relax and let nature heal the injury.

And chilling we did. Gocek looks a pretty little coastal town. First up we noticed the now famous "Kebab Hospital" as advised by Yoga Steve. Oh how we laughed, some just groaned. Thankfully there were no cooking smells. We boarded a fabulous boat chartered just for us. I was anxious about walking the narrow plank, but I managed it limp and flip flops and all. A quick change from my jeans and warm clothes into the sundress (swimming cossie already in position) , and I was ready to enjoy the afternoon. I used the ice immediately and raised my legs on some cushions. We all had a bed each - perfect for 8. I squeezed alongside the lovely young couple, MsJ and MrG - 2 great people, such fun and positivity, and brave of them for coming on a retreat holiday like this together at such a young age. I salute you :).

I was feeling very happy all afternoon, the views of Turkey, Gocek and its surrounding hills and greenery took my breath away. I loved every minute of that trip, and I loved the company of everyone sharing the same experience. It was a great opportunity to see more of where we were staying, and take some time out. I didnt experience the clear blue and green waters, Im still thinking there will be a shark that finds me or something similar, best keep myself safe in the boat. Then there was the issue and challenge of me trying to get back ON the boat, best stay on the boat and not go there - a more enjoyable day out.

We all chatted and laughed and shared pics, we took some pics of each other for the first time, it hasnt been a piccied kind of holiday up til now. A few here and there but mostly of our surroundings. Our conversations predicably covered food but we were focusing on healthy food and how to continue this healthy journey after we have left the retreat. As if we were heaidng off out into the big wide world for the first time. But this time we knew we had found some friends who shared our goals and beliefs. I love my juicey friends :).Everyone of us are inspiring and motovational, everyone has a goal and a purpose and we are giving ourselves a great gift by being here this week.

We were served fruit - and oh what a gorgeous plate of food this was. My lovely MrsT had told me that the fruit in Turkey is the best and she wasnt wrong there. We had grapes, peach (scrummy), apple, pear and melon. I left some but had more apple and pear. It was heaven on a plate on a boat full of lovely people.

The few hours slipped away quite fast, and before we knew it, we were heading back to land. I took a fair few piccies, will add some later once I know how to upload them quickly. We will all share emails before we leave so we can share pics and keep in touch.

On the journey back, it was lovely to see again the forest and nature that surrounds us. Good t be grounded again. I miss this living in the desert, I wanted to suck it all in and keep it with me. A few piccies out of the minibus window would have to suffice along with m vivid memories.

Back at base camp, I got changed, had a juice and got ready for Max's mat session.An easy session it was on the ankle, I was very pleased. It couldnt have been more perfect for and my injury. I felt stronger, fitter and healtier. Again I loved the feeling of a flatter tummy whilst lying in my back. I had to untie my reebok trousers so that I could tighten then as they were falling down on some of the exercises. The music is great, so are the people around me, and where I am. Life is good. Im not giving in or up. Im fighting my way forward.

Some delicious soup later, and a hot shower, I rewarded myself with a sports massage with Sergei. 50 mins of sports pampering. I returned to the lounge to the laughter of the evenings activity - Pictionary. I love that game, however I needed that massage tonight. Bed time, so I returned to my room and my roomie for more girlie giggles. MsA is doing amazing. Today was her 5th day with no ciggies. 5 is her lucky number. Shes done it, shes got through her lucky day and shes moving onto her 6th day of being a healthier, fitter lady. We love listening the the 3 girls next door, we cant hear WHAT they say but we hear the infectious laughter every few mins before the silence kicks in. We both giggle with them, then its time for our sleep. oops past 11pm again, alarm set for 630am, I better wake up for my morning session :)

19 October - Oops I did it again!

Now, I dont mind a bit of Britney, fair play to the lass, shes had her own ups and downs. But that frigging song was playing in my head yesterday. Yes, Oops, I did do it again. Two times in fact. And Im talking about the ankle.

I woke as normal at 630am, I should have know there was something up as I turned the alarm off thinking I was awake. Next thinh I knew, it was 653am. 7mins to get ready for RAF Max'a stretch and abs sessions. I didnt like missing my alarm. I didnt like being late for this 7am session. Who am I? Dont care, Im just loving that morning feeling :).

The session went great, I only missed a few seconds of the warm up. I can feel myself getting better at some of the exercises. Im no pro, Im still at basic mode but noone expects you to do more than you can or you want. Max is great at pushing you, but you can stop at any time you wish. The only issue is I dont want to pause, or stop, or delay. Exercise here is so much fun. Thinking of 1001 ways to kidnap Max and fit her in my already full suitcase!! Will get back to you on that one.

Next up, the green vile but super superfood shots. I knows its vile, maybe the more and more I drink it the easier it will get. Nah, ok, lets just say and agree its rank but its good for me and be done with it. No more complaints from me on this one again.

A little rest, still a tad disappointed Im not rebounding yet, but Im more than happy to get my ankle fit and ready in the next 6-9 months and really go for it on the next retreat - alreayd got 2 planned for next year. One with the friends (already MUCH interest from you lot, contain yourselves ploise!), and another with mum and hopefully little sis too - if I can drag her away from her gorgeous daughter and hubby for a week. Lets see how good my persuasive skills are. I think it would be great to get mum here, she has diabetes type 2 and I think IBS and I would love to give her the gift of a healthy life. I know she would also love the yoga and pilates, maybe not so much the bootcamp. But I did it, so if I can ANYONE can. Seriously, just as LL! So Im alread waiting excitedly for 2012 retreat dates, Nina I promise not to hound and stalk you too much.

Talking of stalking, NORDIC WALKING. I love Sally! If you believe like me that things happen for a reason, good karma and all that lovely stuff, I was meant to be here this week to meet Sally. I had several options to change the week and I nearly did due to the Vit D injection injuries and the subsequent ankle injury in August. However, I decided to go outside my comfort zone and go for the bootcamp week. Im sooo pleased that I did. I have moved my ass, I have smiled through some pain, I have pushed myself, and I have done more exercise in one day than I ever thought I would be able to cope with. Additionally, to have the glowing energy after the exercise too is such a bonus. The juices are the healthy medicine and cure, they are ensuring I can do this and hopefully lose weight too. This is exactly the boost I needed to get me through the last 3 months until New Years in Sydney with 2 fabulous friends. Girls, glad rags time is getting closer and Im going to have to wait to go on my shoppin trip, cos this (getting) little lady aint finished yet.

To keep things going, off I went again on a nordic walk.Pedometer in place on my hip, strategically placed water bottle in my zip up jacket, I was more or less the first one at the poles - nothing unusual there. I am officially a Nordic Nerd - been googling and researching the poles, Sally has approved the taveller carbon ones. Cant wait to get shopping, hoping they can be delivered to the UAE, cos I cant wait til Im back in December - Dad, just in case you get lots of deliveries for me, just chuck them in the car and dbring them with you in December, thanks Pops :).

And off we went. This was a tough one, uphill a lot of the way, but I found a rhythm. I wasnt trying to be the fastest, I wasnt trying to be in the lead, I was just trying my best to complete the walk in my pace. I feel Ive already improved since the first attempt, and it just gets better and better, easier and easier and more fun. LL, this is it, I keep saying it, but this is my thing. Whoop yay!

I was at the back with my roomie, MsA, I remember stopping at one point to admire the forest and how green and pretty it was. I didnt get much chance to look around as I am always watching the ground, checking how I need to go to ensure I avoid any potential accidents. A little further on after stopping, we saw everyone to our left going down and little rocky path. Then there it was, a quick twist and a famliar snap. I felt sick and my eyes watered, I leant forward and a bad word came out my mouth. MsA was lovely, but there is nothing to do in this instance. I didnt even want to sit down, I just wanted to let the pain drift up my ankle into my leg and disappear. I knew it would go away any minute. I was able to walk lightly on it and the nordic poles were a huge help. I went down the rocky path carefully, without poles and just took my time. Apparently we werent far from base camp. Then I took the poles back and within a few mins the ankle went over again. Worse this time, and another click. This time I lost it, the pain was immense but most was the panic and frustration that went with it. I cried, I tried to breathe but I struggled. Sally tried to get me to look at her and focus and all I wanted to do was sob. But I was breathing, the pain was horrible and I felt sick. Looking back, those sobs and cries were most likely all my emotions, that I like to keep in. Those 2 times I stiffled them, here they were. Altogether. Eventually I was ok to walk and I did so slowly. Sally and a fellow juices were amazing and so lovely, I held them back from zooming the walk. I continued without the poles and got back to base camp. Max and some ice was waiting. As I sat with my leg on its side up on the chair my left calf twitched like a snake under my skin very weird. Im thinking that the damaged nerves were suddenly coming alive, the pain must have kicked started this movement. Least I know they are still there.

Then I quickly got ready for the boat trip - time to rest all afternoon with that ankle, to be healed with some fabulous fruit on board. Ice packed with all my essentials, in the minibus into Gocek .....

18 October - Its taking me higher ....

Now the great news is Ive just found my feel good song I heard earlier today, very apt :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRBS5WZMdik&ob=av2e

Now Im feeling even more energised and happy.  As if I need any more energy today. I need a SkyDive in Dubai when I get back - anyone joining me? Ive got a feeling they are closed til November sometime though!

I had a lovely relaxing afternoon, I did some work and connected to the internet for work emails, now I could send some work through and that was a load off my mind. Detoxed and the rest can wait til I go back next Sunday. Me and my roomie stayed in our heated beds in our heated room all afternoon. We even dank our juices here. Bloody brilliant. Now, Im not saying belly No1 and belly No 2 have parted my company yet, but when I was lying down on my back using the laptop I had serious issues trying to type - the laptop kept slipping towards my chin. What the hell was going on? Then I realised the bloating  tummy had become non-bloated and there was no belly wedge keeping the laptop in place. OMG, how marvelous. I felt good. I was already buzzing but everything just seems to be all so positive, the day just feels better and better as it progresses. The joke that they put drugs in the juices is ringing true with me today, such a huge difference to yesterday. Im absolutely loving it :).

Twice today I nearly missed the juices, but they keep them in the fridge for us. Phew. I wasnt hungry, I didnt have cravings or tummy gurgling, or any kind of pangs. In fact I felt quite happy as I was. But though it best that I drink the juices. Lunchtime we had a treat - a ginger shot too. Whoop whoop. 4pm juice was the green thick one I dont like but I drank it followed by my orange - I ate half of it, left the other 2 quarters. I still have 1.5 quarters left in the bowl. So I left some food today even on this retreat!

I decided to give the nordic walk a miss and chill fo a bit - instead I googled Leki Nordic Walking poles. Im a Nordic Nerd now, and I dont want rescuing, Im lining up myself for some serious pisstaking. Do I care? What do you think?

515pm time for bootcamp circuits, outside on the gravel again. Im loving being outdoors so much, I cant remember when I last had this much oxygen and clean fresh air so much. Obviously a very long time ago. We did warm ups which reminded us all of school. Passing a ball in a line above our heads then between our legs then a bit of both. We had 2 lines competing agsinst each other. Our line won 2 times, then we lost at double or nothing. It was such a great way to warm up and get fit, we could all have done this for the whole session. I cant recall the last time I smiled, whooped, cheered, laughed and enjoyed exercise - welll I can - all week but this was just that little bit more fun! Whoop

Then the circuits - a mix of everything again, RAF Max is so creative and fun with her exercise, every person needs to meet this lady to understand how she gets us all to do the best we can. I started off fast walking on the gravel, but I felt the urge to run. So I did. Not everytime but I had the confidence to try it on the uneven surface. I was over the moon, elated. I think I smiled through the whole session today, I was high-fiving some of my fellow juicers, laughing together, it was such a great feeling. I gushed a bit at the end to Max like a right bootcamp circuit groupie. Too funny, if only LL cold see and hear me now!

I got back to my room, bursting with energy, smiles, laughter and jokes, I did not feel like I had just completed the circuits for over an hour. I didnt feel like I had completed over 4hrs of exercise today, on 3 juices and half an orange. Anything is possible, even for people like me. Even if the week doesnt get any better, Im elated that Ive reached this peak in feeling good a feeling of proudness, healthiness, cleanliness, postiveness, clear thinkingness, energised and just happy to my core. A core that is now getting stronger and stronger, it was well on its way before I got here but now doing daily activities, Im feeling the change. I now need to do the gym 4 times a week minimum. Already decided that too today.

More fabulous soup and another great documentary - a MUST for everyone to read the website and download the movie AND WATCH IT :

http://www.foodmatters.tv/

Amazing the information out there that is just not so asily accesible until you attend a retreat like this. I love documentaries anyway, so this is easy viewing for me.

To summaraise today :

Amazing!
A revelation that this is what I can do and feel
Perhaps my first REAL endorphins (after bootcamp circuits)
916 calories walked/moved  (up to bootcamp circuits)
12.45kms walked/moved
Im obsessed with Nordic Walking already
I love Bootcamp circuits RAF Max Styleee
Im happy and content
I need to log off and sleep now (tomorrow is an easy day but still a 630am wake up, I like it)

18 October - 4 is my lucky number

4th day of the detox. I woke up feeling so much better than all day yesterday. Lights didint go out until well after 11am in our room, we were both having a right old chit chat and giggle, seems we felt heaps better once the 3rd day was over and we had the room heater on, and we were both snuggled under our electric blanket beds.

So the alarm went off at 640am, it took me less than 1 minute to move my ass out of bed. That effort alone usually takes between 30 and 60mins each morning, so this is a massive change. Maybe its cos I dont have work to go to however if I analysed that thought more (as I do regularly), I would always opt for work over exercise. To the extent that I would work longer and harder rather than doing the exercise. But hey, thats the old me now so no need to think too much about that thought!

I changed in the toilets so not to wake my roomie too much. Today Im wearing a very fitted white sports top from M&S (AED30 in the sale), this top was an optional choice for me as I didint think it would fit or I wouldnt be comfortable wearing it. I did wear it, I thought sod it. I feel better about my body image, its not perfect and its work in progress, but Im definitely feeling less bloated; and then who cares what Im wearing or look like. This is somewhere everyone is accepted as they are, as Kate said, its safe and comfortable to be yourself. It seems we all are. I had my usual long sleeved warm zipper top on, it was blowing a gale out there. My roomie MsA raised her head and asked what time it was, I said nearly 7 and she laughed and went back to sleep again.

I had a few sips of water and headed down the area where the stretch and abs was taking place, I was 3rd person there, thats a new thing too, I was early! It was a full class by the time everyone arrived. RAF Max was full of beans as always. We did lots of stretching - much needed, then on to the abs, I did as much as I could and I still feel that work as I write this a few hours later. OMG, I need to do more abs on a daily basis. Im getting so fab ideas on how to use my reebok gym balls (2 sizes, I must have know I would need them after this week). And all working on the abs AS I watch my twice weekly Holby City. Looking forward to that when Im back next week - the abs with the reebok gym ball AND Holby City catch up. Oh and X Factor too : )).

After that session I had a cup of chamomile tea and a chat with everyone; a revelation and a challenge with RAF Max was that I CAN be a morning person, I have no excuse with the lovely morning weather in Dubai - Ive now just set a challenge for myself to morning walk every week day, with nordic poles for min 20mins. If I can do that for the rest of my days I will be smiling all the way. After I relaxed for 20 mins, it was time for nordic walking at 815am ....

Yes, more NORDIC WALKING :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKTufkzpo8E

Off we set, it was sooo cold I had to pull the sleeves of my jumper over my hands. I felt good in my newly fitted white sports top underneath, I began to really feel the loss on my body, not just here the last few days but since January. I felt less wobble. Though I didnt forget the wobble of fat on my back and ass when I was leaning forward last night doing the T Jumps. The wobble was more off putting than the muscle pains. If I ever I need reminding of the fact Im still not there yet, a few T jumps should sort that out quite quickly! On a nordic walk, it gets easier the more you try it. I find it easy to do this, which is possibly why I like it so much, its a replacement to running, though I would like to get back to doing some running after the 6-9mths recovery of the ankle is complete. That recovery time will be reduced vastly by daily juicing. No need to over think or anayse that thought process, thats an easy one!

We walked downhill, down down down .... more down down down, then more down down down, it was a killer on my legs, got a bit of shin pain and yesterday I dropped a 3kg weight on my right toes - another injury to the right food. The toes arent as numbas I thought the were, I still felt THAT! Now I have a damaged and injured middle toe and broken toe nail, split right down the midd;e, dead central. Dead painful walking down hill! I was worried at one point, cos I knew we HAD to come back up at som point. This walk was called the Loop, I shouldve known that. Soon we were at the lowest point in the hills and mountains of lovely green Gocek. I cant remember the last time I heard tress make that lovely calming noise in the wind. Lovely. Still freezing cold but the wind had dropped and I had warmed up a bit. At one point I felt I was hiking up Everest, as we turned a corner to another downhill bend we were in the shade and the wind was howling. Thankfully that didnt last too long.

We kept going until we reached the lowest point. Then we were told it was uphill, maybe 2kms, maybe 2.5km, maybe 3kmish. Ok lets just stick at 3kms and if its less then great. It was really uneven on the way up, a bit wobbly on the feet, went over on the ankle a few times but nothing major. Amazed it can still hurt with a few judders over the right side. Thank you Reebok Zigblaze trainers, you have saved me many times now. Thank you Outlet Mall!! I had to stop several times, my elgs hurt and my back hurt. I had LL in my head all the wat up - "Youve got more left than you think you have, keep going, youve got another 20% (or was it 50%) to give, keep going, you can do it, all her words of encouragement and belief in me was now ringing in my ears. With Amy (Kate's sisters) help, MsA and I made it to the top of the climb (the walk fomr yesterday) and we stopped for some water, and a quick rest in the sunshine. I took off my jacket, here I was in my tight fitted white top without a care in the world. It felt good.

On the last climb up the drive to "base camp" I got my mojo back. Especially at the last bit, I knew as soon as I had got past the blue car I was home, just a few more steps. Checking the pedometer it read 10.56kms but I had worn it since I woke up this morning, so Im thinking that was a 10km walk I completed in 2hrs. Now I know what 10kms feels like, I can improve on flat ground AND with nordic poles of my own. After Ive completed this blog Im ordering online so they will be in Dubai when I get back. Bloody marvelous. I will email the club so I can get a few one on one sessions booked it. So if you see someone walking with poles looking a bit out of place but without a care in the world around Safa Park, from next week, youve found me :). Come and join me too.

10am brekkie juice time - my fave apple, carrot, lomon and ginger WITH banana. Yummmmmmmy! I was ready for that. Now Ive blasted this morning I dont feel bad about taking it easy until this afternoon. Minimum its bootcamp circuits with RAF Max (wish she was working in Dubai too!), however Im planning a pre bootcamp nordic walk with the lovely Sally - I missed her body pump session after the 10km walk this morning but there was no way I would have survived that. Though I did  hear a fave tune playing - me and LLs skydiving tune :

Im now skipping through my ipod to find it and give myself and further energy boost. As I search I find a song by David Guetta called "Juice". Cant find that one on youtube yet ....

Everyone seems happier today, there is a sure thing on that 3rd day detox. Ive regained my sense of humour, Ive regained what feels like my sanity (a clear move away from the clouds and foggy head of yesterday). I feel less hungry, I feel like I have more energy to do more today. Im on a boat trip tomorrow so will miss a the afternoon relaxation but hopefully not too much of the activities. For now, Im happy to warm up, stay warm, if its warm enough I will sit in the sun. Another juice is due shortly.

At 1030am today I had walked/moved 10.25km and burned 756 calories. On a very odd note, and I have to mention it as a few people have asked me - I had a few "toilet" moments on Sat, Sun and Mon, however as of now I would say the proper clear out comes after the 3rd day - that 3rd day is a killer. Now Im beyond cleared out. Sorry to mention for those who dont talk toilets, you better not read beyond here then ....
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Today it smelt like cow poo - the summer day sort! Have I been eating grass the last few days ha ha. Must be all that vile super green food. Just the process of fruit and greens through the system. Oh well, it can only be positive and reduce the belly further.

To be continued later today. Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement and motivation, your words ring round my head as I do the exercises, trust me they help me loads. Big warm snuggly hugs, especially LL and someone I cant mention on here - you know who you are, I will see you Sunday evening!!! I would never have done any of this stuff unless you gave me the motivation and tools to be capable. Im going to need you both more when Im back, theres no stopping this stubborn scottish girl now : ))).

17 October - 3rd Day Detox catchup

My alarm went off at 630am as planned. I had been dozing since 5am, but I didnt want to wake up. I heard the rain - yuck, I dont do rain or any wet stuff. I felt like shite. I went to the loo, and went back to bed again. I decided not to go for the early moring stretch and abs and classical rebounding. Instead I would make it for 915am bootcamp session.

Things rarely totally go to plan. I got up at 830am, decided I would drink a hot cup of tea with ginger - camomile this time. Steve and MrT were chatting in the lounge area. The kitchen girls were pottering around. I thought nothing of the quietness. Then I saw the white board - the one that outlines each days activities. Rain ruined play for sure. The abs and stretch had occured but was extended to end at 750am. Classical rebounding was cancelled and the walk was moved to around lunchtime-ish. Worst of all the bootcamp session had been changed to 845am to 945am. I decided against joining half way through, I wasnt quite feeling up for it all. I still felt like shite but not as bad as at 630am.

So I sat and drank my tea, chatted to the boys, then my roomie appeared and we chatted some. The room was set up for the juicing demo by Kate but first some juice of our own. I needed that today. This morning I woke up with a rumbling in my tummy, though when I lie on my back my stomach is flatter, and Ive found some hip bones, they werent there before!

The juicing demo and talk was great, but I really didnt feel good. Maybe this is the worst part that Kate had mentioned before - the 3rd day is the worst then after this we will be fine. Heres hoping and the cold goes away soon. The juices are the best thing for this bloody cold, so Im grateful for this. I still cant stay awake, I feel so tired. As I look around the room, everyone looks tired, so we must all be going through the same dreaded 3rd day of the detox. The weather matched out mood - it continued to rain and was grey clouds everywhere. In fact we are actually in the clouds - 1000ft above sea level. Theres no quick escape to get some food and beverages from here ...

It was then decided that today would be the day for the turkish bath trip - 8 of us volunteered our skin, bodies and soul to the techniques of Borat - I need to source a photo to show you all. After a long car journey down in a car that was on a par with a Trabant, we arrived. After changing and getting into the steam room, where 8 of us were heared like cattle, we eventually entered the main arena. And there was Jay Leno working alongside Borat. What a combination. There were 4 people ahead of us so we sat and watched them, a weird thing to do really. Once huy should have been jucing, another woman had a body to die for even though she looked late 60s.

Then it was our turn. MrT the only guy in our group disappeared at one stage, I thought he had done a runner but he came back (a little birdie may have mentioned the word sneak and crisps but that was 2rd hand ...). Only a few slaps later we were all scrubbed, showered, lathered in soap and massaged and showered again. I had no choice to have my belly massaged, despite my pathetic disagreement! Was well worth the time away from "base camp", though the weather remained terrible. I got in the first car heading back, I was really feeling peculiar now, but I think the steam room and sweating helped a lot.

Arriving back to the hotel, there was a juice waiting for us, a green gloopy one. I didnt care what it was, it was food and I needed energy to survive the rest of the day. I missed nordic walking again, but I mamaged the bootcamp circuit session with RAF Max. Glad I did, as even though I was feeling way of balance and very not myself, I sweated my way through the session. At the end she played this song :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UK9vz_kGjQU

As we stretched to this song, I started to feel emotional. I wanted to sob and sob but I didnt want to make a fool of myself. Maybe thats all the emotions I needed today. Maybe taking control of that emotion was what I needed to do to prove to myself I can control my eating habits, stay disciplined to a life of juicing and to be so very very proud of what I have done this week and for the last 10+ months. I do feel different and I do look to the future. Earlier in the day, this morning when I was sat outside drinking my tea as I missed the morning session,  I listened to Adele singing that song about someone like you ... you know the onw I mean, and I was in tears then, but I managed to pull myself out of it. It reminded me of letting someone go and the words were suddenly very personal. But I didnt want to look to the past, only the future. However, at that moment at the end of the afternoon boot camp session, all I could think of was my hot shower.

Then soup - we all got excited earlier in the day when we saw potatoes being peeled. OMG it was like one of my Grans veggie broths. Seriously these soups save my sanity. Though tonight as I stepped into the lounge, it was hot and I felt sick, music was playing, everyone was talking in many different conversations. I had to eat my soup outside. It was cool and peaceful and I more or less had that space to myself except for the few nutters running in and out of the sauna and the freezing cold pool! I had my 2nd bowl of soup inside and we started to watch a movie - that one, something about the void, where he has to chop himself away fomr the ice mountain to escape. OMG by brain cells are disappearing again! I managed only 30mins then it was time for massage no 3. This time sports massage but not so tough. It was fine and not very tough, my 4th will be full on tough massage, Now Im a sports woman, as indicated on my deoderant bottle! I remind myself every day of that, my own private funny!

Tea and the last 30mins of the movie, I missed the gory bit thank god, and back to my room on my laptop. And here I am. 1040pm, Im still with cold but its improving tons, Im feeling sleepy and ready for a good nights sleep, my roomie and I have had a few giggles tonight, both of us sat in bed with electric blankets on and I love her as she keeps the radiator on warm. Fabulous/

Now that detox day 3 is out of the way I can re-find my sense of humour and energy levels again. Roomie is alos getting over her tough 1st few days and shes doing good, less sleeping today and more smiles. This was never going to be easy and I knew I would have to push myself. Day 4 tomorrow, alarm set for 640am. Will tell you tomorrow what I achieve and Im proud of then. Night night xx

16 October - Part 2

Its now 17 October, again sat in my  bed warmed by the electric blanket. Yesterday now seems so long ago, this morning seems long ago. Thats the effect of the fresh air...

The funniest thing is that everyone tries to avoid it but ALL conversations get back to food - in detail. We have discussed different curries, our personal vices, good old Sunday roasts, bacon butties far more than I care to recall, crips, fave chocolate, all types of bread .. you get the picture. Someone says one word, then the rest of the group moan as if we are being tortured. But we all came here knowing that. Well, MOST of us did - a few people here just booked up and turned up without reading and reaearching and knowing what they are in for - MrT being one of them. Now I heard a rumour there were a tube of Pringles demolished Friday evening and you are missing from the bootcamps ..... :).

So yes, Sunday afternoon.

I opted out of volleyball. I just have this feeling that if I keep playing Im going to do something small, silly but painful to my ankle. Its just not worth the risk. I mostly came here for the botcamp session and the walking. Will come back another week for the yoga and pilates. Lucky, we had 2 sessions with Steve though. Bonus.

Next up, bootcamp circuits with RAF Max! She knows her stuff and how to make it interesting, Ive never known exercise to be soe creative. And she makes us sweat. Thankfully there is some good background music. I was pleased as there were some boxing circuits - 3 in fact. We were in pairs working round each circuit, 1 or 2 mins on each one - covering all muscles and areas of the body. As it was starting to rain, or threatening to piss it down, we did this under cover with the protective sides down. This at least made us al feel a little warmer. The exercises are explained as easy, intermediate and advances - sometimes super advance as a 4th option in my opinion. I opt mostly for the easy level so that I can do more repititions or due to my ankle I cant do the intermediate level. No matter what anyones fitness levels, everyone would take something away from these sessions. This is what I came for. I like it - so say Max ...!

I decided against the nordic walking - a bit of the fact that I was feeling really shite as a cold was coming on. I had felt it the night before when I was having my massage - the razor sandpaper at the back of my throat and the coldness at the back of my nose. I also didnt want to slip on the stones and hurt my ankle. Again, to be safe so that I can enjoy the rest of the week and make the most of the experience.

The juices are good though I personally dont like the greener ones, but I know they are doing me good.This I know for sure. We watched a movie called "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" - an amazing story and more. If that doesnt reinforce trust in the juicing I dont know what will.

http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/

The soups are totally the highlight of the day, feels like a huge warm hug and I feel safe. I also know its the sign that the day of exercise is over. Until tomorrow. Bed time for 930pm, alarm set for 630am, time to sweat this head cold out of my system. End of another fabulous and life changing day at the Juicemaster Retreat.

16 October - Another day in Paradise

I woke up again at 530am, thats sooo not me. LL you will be impressed. As Im sharing I went back to sleep again however I have decided that if I wake up again at 530am Im getting up and heading to the lounge, and read or update this blog. Im glad IM sharing but its a lot easier on my own!

Eventually my alarm woke me up at 645am - roomies woke me at 6am, 630am and 645am too. I decide against the warm shower today - it takes 5-10mins for the cold shower to turn hot anyway and I didint have time. I had a stretch and abs session to attend to at 715 - 745am. Stretchin was great, abs was tough but I did the best I could, I could have done more but it hurt! Im going to feel that tomorrow. We did this on the platform that is open to the valley and mountains. It really is a beautiful sight, especially early morning.

Then we had the green super food shot - vile stuff but I know its good for me.

Of went on the group walk - some people ran, some walked or power walked, some like me took to the nordic walking again. Fabulous invention ever. Down the gravelly hill, onto the main road and we just walked and walked. Fresh air, clean air, nice sounds, peacefulness, a few honking horns from the passing cars and bikes, not many waves (not very friendly on first impression), and so much green stuff everywhere. On the way back I chatted to Sally, a real honest conversation that would usually be reserved for the select few in my life. Its great to be open and honest, great to let the real me emerge with no secrets and hidden facets! The walk back was easier than I anticipated. I was glad I wore my perdometer again, It showed we had walked up and down hills for 8km. Fabulous. That showed 577 calories burned too. Im determined to beat yesterdays pedometer reading, a small challange I know I will achieve by the end of the day.

A quick stretch with Max overlooking the valley on the platform and breakfast juice. Lovely and green. Theres a bit of a theme here!

I opted out of the Body Pump session, I wanted ot enjoy the yoga more and I was a bit sore around the ankle and a bit stiff fom the morning walk. I opted to update yesterdays blog - I only managed to complete half of it. I sat outside in the sunny shade, in the fresh air. It was lovely and good to get everything that was in my head from yesterday onto the blog. Now I can just read it myself and not have to try and memorise everything.

Next, another yoga session with Steve followed by a 30 min relaxtion session. I feel asleep, my right arm twitched far too much. I felt amazing :).

To be continued ....